6th of July

Sometimes, kita rasa kita kenal someone ni. How they act, how they react. But the truth is tuhan lebih tahu dan kita cuma manusia biasa yang rasa kita tahu.

Jatuh bangun dalam hidup, aku rasa aku dah tempuh banyak jenis manusia. Yang baik akhirnya berperangai celaka. Yang luaran jahat tapi ada harmoni bila bersuara. Yang kecewa dengan luka luka lama. Basically apa yang aku cuba sampaikan ialah dah ramai yang aku jumpa.

Here's the thing. I always think people deserve a second chance. I always do. Cliche but yeah I still think that way. Benda ni, dah selalu menyusahkan aku, dan aku sepertinya tak serik untuk hadap lagi dan lagi.

Aku tak tahu kenapa I felt that way about people. Setiap manusia unik dan aku rasa tak patut untuk aku abaikan anyone yang ada dalam kehidupan aku just because they are acting like a cunt. Maybe bitch or even bastard.

I hate to hate people. And I love to love people. That is my problem. For me, setiap manusia harus diselamatkan selagi aku mampu. My life? Nah I don't mind. I'll live. Esok esok, boleh kejar dunia. Now, I've got to help and safe people.

I've been in the situation where people I help treat me like I'm a stranger. Well, sakit memang sakit. But I'll live. I have god. Aku doa orang tu dapat petunjuk and aku belajar ni dari ma aku. Biar orang buat kita, kita doa pada tuhan semoga dia dapat petunjuk.

And today, aku rasa maybe its time. Maybe I should berdoa banyak banyak kepada tuhan. I need some help badly and beri lah petunjuk. Pada dia, mereka and myself.

Yeah I know. Kalau nak doa, duduk atas sejadah sana tak payah show off blablabla oh shut up sajalah. I rant here whenever I want. You don't like it, don't read. If you read, don't ask.

I rant because I'm a human being too. And I own a heart. If you can't see one it doesn't mean I don't own one.

Today, I am sad and just let me be normal for awhile.